[ mizz . baby . anqelik ]

2002-07-25T00:59:00.000-04:00

Are you NASTY or NICE?

Quiz made by Angela

2002-07-25T00:25:00.000-04:00

stupid water fairy thing made my stuff overlap... grrrr

2002-07-25T00:05:00.000-04:00

I'm Hello Kitty Water Fairy! made by: Jen

2002-07-24T16:04:00.000-04:00

it's sinking in... ::sigh::

(( 01; are you male or female? female
(( 02; describe your neighbourhood: boring and nothing good ever happens
(( 03; how do you look? shitty
(( 04; if you could say something to the person you like, what would it be? thank you for giving me the chance to love you.
(( 05; where do you wish you were right now? mall.. beach.. canada
(( 06; what would you say to your best friend? hihi ;P
(( 07; any words of wisdom: watever happens happens
(( 08; what do you wish you were doing right now? not reminiscing
(( 09; what do you think of drugs and alcohol? ehh..
(( 10; if you could say one thing to your enemy, what would it be? puta. puta. puta.
(( 11; what do you usually do on friday nights? stay home lol..
(( 12; are you for world peace? yerp.
(( 13; what do you think about school? it's kay..
(( 14; how do you feel right now? don't ask me until school starts..
(( 15; any closing words? i miss you..

2002-07-23T19:03:00.000-04:00

heh, i read my l_j.. i sounded really stupid..

the rain used to make me happy.. now it's making me cry.. so pathetic..

have i really lost all hope? thats wat i keep asking myself over and over again.. i don't see things the way he does.. im not sayin wat he's thinkin is wrong buh.. there's no chance.. it's done. it's over. tapoos. like i honestly think there's no more chances.. we used all of them up, plus more in this lifetime already..

i can't say "oh i love you so much and i want you back so badly please stay with me".. coz wats the point? if you don't really want it, then you're not willing to try.. and you're just gonna keep killing wat's left.. iunno i just hate being treated like a yo-yo and it's like, yeah if we get back together how do i know he wants it? how do i know he's gonna try? how will i know if im gonna try? maybe by then i won't even want it..

heh, the next person i fall in love with.. if you're actually real and do exist.. please have your mind set on if you want to keep me or not.. it would save me a whole lotta trouble :( also, take note, i'm a huge bitch wen it comes to arguments.. so please don't run away wen we do :\

i need some anti-depressants.. im startin to feel that feelin again.. :x

2002-07-23T18:43:00.000-04:00

here's another entry i found.. random quotes.. some of u might like dem.. i guez..

[ random quotes... ] [02 Jun 2002|10:43pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]

i just found some on a page... just thought i'd like to share.

I'll never be sorry for loving him, just sorry it ended so quickly.

What do I do? I mean, I'm sitting here, and everything's hitting me all at once. The tears fall slowly down my cheek, and my whimpers can barely be heard. I'm pushing you away, and I know it's what I need, but the pain you must be feeling is hurting me far more than words could even describe.

Even though I can say it's his loss, deep down inside I know it'll be mine too.

It's time to let you go it's time to say good-bye. No more excuses, no more tears to cry. There have been so many changes; I've been so confused. All along you were the one, all the time I never knew. I want you to be happy, you're my best friend. But it's so hard to let you go now, with all that could have been.

*We attach ourselves so strongly to people that when they're gone, a part of us is gone too.*

*You hug him good-bye like it's nothing...while all you want to do is hold on
forever...but you let go, smile and walk away...then cry all the way home because you know it will never be the same...because try as you might you can't make someone love you, sometimes you have to let them be free...and letting go, that is when love hurts the most of all*

"Good-byes will always hurt, pictures will never replace being there, thanx is a feeble word...words can never replace feelings and heroes often go unsung...people seldom say I love you and then it's either too late or the moment goes, so when I tell you I love you it doesn't mean I know you'll never go, only that I wish you didn't have to."

Forget the times he walked by, forget the times he made you cry, forget the times he spoke your name, remember now he's not the same, forget the times he held your hand, forget the sweet things if you can, forget the times and don't pretend, remember now he's just your friend

"Promise me...that's all I want. Just a promise that you will never forget me. Tell me I changed you somehow. Let me know that I had an impact on your life. Promise me that you will always remember me. Losing you was hard enough, but I don't want to go on knowing I meant absolutely nothing to you. "

"I will wait for you. I don't care when you are coming back or if you ever plan to see me again because fate will bring you back to me and I will wait an eternity if that's how long it will take"

Nothing last forever no matter how bad you want it to. I know, I wanted him pretty bad. But maybe it is for the best. I am letting him go silently though. I can't tell him in fear that I will make a fool of myself by begging him to stay. Suck back my tears and walk away. I can't worry about my heart breaking. Someday I'll find someone...someday. I wish the tears would stop.

*The worst way to miss someone is to have them standing right next to you and know you can't have them. *

2002-07-23T17:05:00.000-04:00

my dad's mad, buh iunno why..

hung out wid dustin.. juz ate pizza (out of 20, i hab 3 freakin dollars left ;P) en was at the library readin magazines fer a bit to kill time.. played wid yanni.. it was fun.. we juz spendin time before next month coz den won't see each other at all..

::sigh::

2002-07-22T23:17:00.000-04:00

waitin on mai mickey dee's.. hopefully, dey get a chance tah go der..

im def. bloggin usin AOL from now on.. dat template crap dun show up wen i use it.

daddy, i love you. sweet dreamin tonight 0;)

2002-07-22T21:42:00.000-04:00

I'm Angelic Cute!! made by Jen

wahtahh! dass right bitches im anqelik ;P

since wen is chandler a chick name??

Which Lilo & Stitch Character Are YOU?

Find out now! Only from the Quiz Junkie

2002-07-22T21:20:00.000-04:00

i spent an hour with him.. and it felt pretty damn good :)

eeew, my picture looks bad.. imma change it..

2002-07-22T15:57:00.000-04:00

i'm pulling through today... we were supposed to see each other, but his stomach isn't letting him go anywhere. it's alright i guess... i mean, i'm pretty stupid for letting myself get worked up over nothing again ;\

i didn't cry today or last night amazingly... iunno, this time it feels different to me. i miss him like crazy and i want him back more than anything... but i guess i don't have the heart to tell him those things in depth because it won't help him. and... unlike before... i didn't start to think of a compromise; this time i just accepted it. nuts, eh? i don't know why i'm feeling the way i am or why i'm not showing it like how i did before.. maybe it's coz i already have my mind made up.. or maybe it's coz i realized that it's done forever and that there's no point in forcing him into something he never wanted to begin with..

i've been pretty selfish with him: keeping him when he didn't want to be kept. plus, everything's killed now: friendships with certain people, the respect or approval of others and the relationship we had... or wat was left of it. so now he's free.. to do wat he wants without me in the way. this is my last week off, camp starts sunday, canada is on august 2nd and then he's in daytona when i come back, when he comes back i have field hockey.. so we won't see each other at all.. which i guess will help because it's eaiser to forget about someone that way.. not that i plan to, but it will help him.. coz i know wat he's feeling.. he may not know it, but keeping busy and not seeing each other will help you forget.. help you get over it.. help make the pain go away..

iunno.. i guess we were never meant to be..

and i can't do anything about it..

2002-07-22T01:30:00.000-04:00

igot this quote from some chick that was on the sharon cuneta show:

"a relationship is never 50/50.. it's always 100/100. there is no give/take, there is always give/give.. the taking will come as a reward for your giving."

2002-07-21T19:16:00.000-04:00

"Just Once" by James Ingram

I did my best, but I guess my best wasn't good enough
'cause here we are back where we were before
seems nothing ever changes
we're back to being strangers
wondering if we ought to stay or head on out the door

Just once
can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
why we never last for very long
what are we doing wrong.
just once
can't we find a way to finally make it right
to make the magic last for more than just one night
if we could just get to it
I know we could break through it.
Ohh ohhh

I gave my heart
but I think my heart may have been too much
'cause lord knows we're not getting anywhere
seems we're always blowing
whatever we've got going
and it seems at times with all we've got
we haven't got a prayer...

Just once
can't we figure out what we keep doing wrong
why the good times never last for long,
where are we going wrong
just once...
can't we find a way to finally make it right
to make the magic last for more than just one night
i know we could break through it
if we could just get to it

(Bridge)
Just once, I want to understand...
why it always comes back to goodbye;
why can't we get ourselves in hand
and admit to one another
we're no good without each other
take the best and make it better
find a way to stay together

Just once...
can't we find a way to finally make it right...Ohhhh
to make the magic last for more than just one night
i know we could break through it
if we could just get to it

Just Once...
Ohhhh, we can get to it
Just Once...

2002-07-21T12:45:00.000-04:00

i found this in my old lj, too...

[ sorry it's been a while... ] [14 Jun 2002|11:22pm]
[ mood | melancholy ]
[ music | "one sweet day" - mariah carey and boyz II men ]

"each day i wake up wit a smile...knowin ill see u...knowin ill talk to u..and each day ends with a tear...knowin that we're not the same as before.."
~dustin

2002-07-21T00:31:00.000-04:00

we broke up... for good.

i know i've said that about a million times before, but this is permanent

... and i hate it 0¦*(

i found this on my old lj too...
me and dustin are done for good this time... even though i don't want to admit it i doubt we'd get back together... and if we did, it's not gonna be the same... maybe i'm just confused and i don't understand what he wants or what he's trying to say to me... i don't know. i'm not his. he's not mine. even though i wanted it to be like that. i made the mistake of saying that earlier today. i guess i'm stuck, huh?

i guess i was totally right on that one.

2002-07-19T19:40:00.000-04:00

scratch that... sunday im busy... this fucking sucks. i hate diz stupid ass party shit. thank God for mountain dew code red.

2002-07-19T14:21:00.000-04:00

i think imma change diz shit around a bit... buh prolly on sunday coz mai ass has nothin to do dat day ;P

2002-07-17T23:55:00.000-04:00

after readin' marq's xanga wid daddy i got the urge to blog. plus, i went to dorney park yesterday.. so i gotta write about dat.

at firss i wasn't gonna hab anything to do yesterday becoz all my friends weren't pickin up der cell phones. goodness, i want wun juz so i can ignore everyone's calls too! anyways, dustin asked me to go and i was like... nahh son, iss lloyd's day. then lloyd IMs me and is like: i would like for you to kom... i was still a lil iffy buh both of dem assured me dat it was okay. soo yeah, monday night i went to bed late coz i was packin en ishies.

soo i wake up at 6 yesterday i take a shower and i change. as soon as im dun wid all dat en i start to clean, dustin calls me up en sez he gonna pick me up coz lloyd, tito francis, tita chona and rich ( X_x -bleh ) are gonna pick us up at dustin's. so me en daddy chizzle on his stoop for like two hours. i swear, daddy i've never seen daddy that awake... especially since it was like 6:50 in da mornin. so finally, dey come and we drive off. we started playin go fish in da car buh dat got boring (coz i beat da boyz ;P)... so dey talked and i fell asleep fer a lil.

wen i woke up, we wer at da mc donald's across from dorney. we had breakfast der... i had an egg mc muffin... all da guyz had bacon egg and cheez on a buscuit. well, lloyd didnt hab cheez i think... ohwellz... oh and rich had that plus hotcakes and a bunch of other stuff (43'5 987777!!!! hahaha) ohh and the mcdonald's was sooooo cool coz they had race car chairs and i went vroom vroom! yay!!

so we get in da park... and all of us go in to buy da tickets. kekeke... tito francis is so funny... these people wer walkin wid discount cupons in der hands talkin and he juz goes up to dem en starts lookin at da discount things. kekeke... so we go in... get lockers... change and daddy, rich, lloyd and me split up from tito francis and tita chona and go to da water rides. we went on aquablast, the lazy river thing, the wave pool... uhhh and a whole bunch of other tube ride things. at i think 2 we met up wid da 'rents to eat at subway, den we changed to go on da dry rides. TALON hahaha omg... i had daddy to the left of me going "awww geez guys" in da gayest voice ever... lloyd to da right screamin' like a woman... en rich juz laughin. i only screamed once... can u beleive it? usually i'd be screamin obscenities in my native tounge as well as english... buh it was too much... kekekee ohh man im never gonna forget dat ;P

after talon we walked around summore... went on steel force, talon, laser (since dey coodnt get on da lil laser dey went on da big wun... derrt ;P), that boat ride thing and i rode dominator wid lloyd. it was awesome coz der wer no lines... everyone was at da water park so we didnt even hab to wait fer anything. we walked around en did games en stuff... dustin was fockin around wid dis guy and asked him if he cood 'fuck around wid his balls'... damn i never knew daddy was so damn goofy kekeke... he also made da basketball guy turn his low-five into a high-five.... ::shakes head en giggles::...

daddy won me a bear!! she's pink en her name is kristy. she's nakey cept fer her white bandana ;P me and daddy too pictures too! i'll letchu see some wen i make mai subpage tomorrow... or da next day... iunno im busy wid yanni's partay junk.

so anyways, wen we go home... daddy not feelin well so he lay down in da back on mai lap en rich was drivin. we fall asleep... den somewhere in pennsylvania we stop at a buffet to eat. der was nothin der coz da kitchen was closing so we head back out, rich still drivin... he makes a k-turn and BAM!! hits a light pole. everyone went out one by one to see da damage: tito francis, rich, tita chona, and lloyd. me and daddy? we stayed in da car (81710 180614310 0012 855 044) hahaha... soo yah... tito francis drove from den on. we went to wendy's in parsippany ate... den went home.

damn fun fun day yesterday... today was chill... daddy came over ROBHS ;xxxxxxx, i made din-din, played battle arena toshinda, ate ice cream, catched fireflies and talked and talked and talked. i love chizzlin wid daddy... it makes me soo... happy :)

aiigh im off... dis was one BIG ass entry... haha nite ;)

i love you daddy.

2002-07-14T19:59:00.000-04:00

whoops... i forgot about this fer a sec der ;x

im juz sittin here waiting fer mai hair to dry... papi went to church en all mai fam is outside. dayumm seriously, mai whole street thinks wer crazy coz ders a portable baby crib thing outside on da front lawn wid chairs en a table... lol mai family's so damn ghetto sometimes.

today i chizzled wid papi. i went to his house fer a lil bit, den we had lunch (was it lunch?) at lucky kitchen. afterwards we chizzled outside mai house wid mai ghetto family. keke... me en daddy en yanni went out fer a walk. daddy was so damn cute pushing the stroller!! awwwwa... daddy dustin!! :) keke ppolz also thought we were an actual family... soo yeah wer like teen parents... riiigh ;P

ookay my jiggly ass is bouncin coz mai mom wants me to look up show times fer a movie.

2002-07-10T23:00:00.000-04:00

iss around 10 en i juz got off da phone wid papi :) i love you.

so today dus came en we walked over to rite aid to get our pictures developed. then we had lunch at da spa and went back to mai house to chizzle fer a lil. he had to go home at 5:30... so you kno wat i did. i popped aw2r on da dvd player en watched it until dus came back from dinner. we watched aw2r en i gave him a pedicure keke. s'all good daddy now you gotz puurty toes ;).

ROBHS ;xxxxx

we went down fer dumplings at lucky kitchen den ice cream at da dairy. we ate, we drank, we pretended to be high keke. den at 9 dus had to go so i sed laters to mai daddy en chizzled at da comp en watched a lil tv. now i think imma watch charlie's angels since i didn't get to finish before. laters ppolz

2002-07-09T13:09:00.000-04:00

wow she hasnt blogged in two days... and she even stayed home yesterday!!

keke yeah, so im really tired from LI... it's been two days, buh yeah... still tired. a walk to remember comes out today and i think imma buy it. my mom juz gave me the money after she was bein a bitch about it yesterday... go fig.

dustin came over yesterday ROBHS ;xxx

i didnt do much... and i dont plan on doin much today either, keke. today i think imma juz watch movies in mai sis's room en werk on fixin my blogger up a bit. imma make a new banner en maybe replace mai pic on da side. dus sed he wants a banner too so imma fix him wun up too ;)

okey... back to da air conditioning...

2002-07-06T23:30:00.000-04:00

yayness!! long island tomorrow!!

i'm lookin fer j... gotto make sure he's coming tomorrow...

eeeee!! so excited!! ;DDD

2002-07-06T15:11:00.000-04:00

runaway train never coming back...

stupidmotherfuckingsongwontgetouttamyhead
itsbeenintheresincelastfuckingnight
whywontitfuckinggoawaygaaaahhh.

2002-07-05T23:17:00.000-04:00

i took a bunch of quizzes when the server was down... check dem:

Find your emotion!

Real When people ask you anything, they know they're getting the truth. You're brutally honest, true to yourself and don't play games. If someone doesn't like it, they don't exist to you. You don't often fight or bicker - you live life and you do it on your own terms.

You're AIM, probably the most popular instant messenger out there. The bad thing is that you're run by a bunch of corporate assholes, but what isn't nowadays?

2002-07-05T17:37:00.000-04:00

nii-ett... im so tired lol.

sorry i didnt wish anyone happy 4th of july... i was out watchin fireworks wid mai papi ;) wanna know wat happ? yah of course u do ;P

so yesterday i wake up en im juss chillen anden i get a call from mai papi en hes askin if i can go watch da macy's fireworks display wid him, la, jay and lauren en im like i'll ask? well yah i did anden mai mom and dad sed i cood go, so around 4:30-5 jay en dus en everyone comes to pick me up en we head off to pathmark fer food. we got to liberty state park at around 6ish, spread our blankets, chilled, played who's in da box keke, en waited fer da fireworks.

damn dey wer so pretty... from da position we wer in (ew, not that position u sicko ;P) it looked like da fireworks wer comin right atchu... tenku daddy fer inviting meeh. i loved it 0;)

en so righ now i gotz a towel on mai head coz im too lazy to dry mai hair. i havent been online in like 2 days so mai mailboxes are all full... damn ppolz. >_<

i'll write laters or tomorrow... whichever comes firss ;P

2002-07-03T13:33:00.000-04:00

how nice...

You are much like your relative, hash, only discretion is adviced upon your company as to weather you are the distinctive quality of sweet pungant smelling buds, or crappy kiff or leaf. Like hash, you have a funny effect on people making time with you a strange and wonderful concept to perceptualise. People enjoy listening to music with you and can spend much time discussing the varying depths of sound or other such stuff, either that or they sit for a time in a semi-comatosed state. Often people in your company think they can understand Einstien's theory of relativity when infact they are so shitfaced they cant even tie up their shoes laces, but as it has been found, either could Einstien. Sometimes you make people paranoid and they walk down dark alley ways and creep along parked cars to elude the police from seeing them. Spending great amounts of time with you makes people want to lose their job and live an alternative lifestyle supplying the state with their yearly yeilds..of your kind. Often they get bored of the idea soon and begin eating smaller amounts of the stuff or giving up cigarrettes, before they have a psychotic episode and join their crazy diamond of a friend in the mental ward.

Find Out If You Were A Drug, What You Would Be!

quiz by ravenritings

2002-07-03T13:15:00.000-04:00

wow... i was pretty damn pissed...

well, i already asked my mom if i could go somewhere for the next two weeks and my options were jersey city with michelle or next door with angela. i told her i'd pass...

so with that, i asked her if she would see if there were any job openings at the hospital. i could work mornings or up until about 3 and then i could have the rest of the afternoon to do watever. jobs are pretty lenient about vacations too... so i dont think the two weeks off for fh camp and canada would matter... but hey, i have no clue if there is an opening or not. there prolly isnt so imma juss have to stay at home some more ;P

anyways, i'm off... bol's here(!?) haha first time i've seen him in a week.

2002-07-03T01:12:00.000-04:00

I'M ALWAYS HOME I FUCKING HATE THIS.

I'M GETTING THE FUCK OUT OF HERE UNTIL I HAVE TO GO TO CAMP... I'M GOING SOMEWHERE ELSE WHERE NO ONE CAN PISS ME OFF AND I FUCKING MEAN IT.

2002-07-03T01:08:00.000-04:00

wow, sorry i don't have thriving social lives like some people...

2002-07-02T20:07:00.000-04:00

j... a las ocho na pero waai nag tawag sa akon... kag na-aa kon ako ma tawag sa imo waai ga sabat sa balay mo?? tsk tsk... keke stoOpid get offline en pick up ur phone! ;P

2002-07-02T19:25:00.000-04:00

damn i haven't blogged all day.

today i woke up early, went to get mai eyebrows threaded with mai mom anden we went to mandees. i got three tops en a pair of jean capris en a pair of white wuns. den i did mai laundry en yah i basically vegged all day.

tony hawk is sooo out. rayman kicks ass! x)

i changed mai desktop... i know all of you wanna see soooo badly ;P en en... i hab mai firss graphic i made off adobe too soo yah... woOt.

2002-07-01T23:06:00.000-04:00

kekekekeke... it sed i was VERY Canadian

I am 83% CANADIAN!!!

(Take the Canadian-ness test)

2002-07-01T20:50:00.000-04:00

i was watching blow ... yanno that movie about marijuana... lol yeah it's on channel 98, but it got kinda boring coz i've seen it already...

dustin came over... ROFHS ;xxxxxxxxxxxx keke it was great.

okey back to da movie! ;P

2002-07-01T14:52:00.000-04:00

so much stuffs goin on... i'm doin mai laundry buh i'm bein sidetracked coz tito boy left his nasty undies in da washer ;P

it seems so calm outside... i think imma go read another book in da swing :)

2002-06-30T23:09:00.000-04:00

busy busy day todae... hrrrmzz wat did i do?

i woke up early en headed to jc. we got mai aunt en mai cousin anden we went to da parade site... well the end of it wer da flea market en food was anden we walked around. da parade was dumb coz da emcee didn't kno who da hell was who en kept makin mistakes. i was lookin fer tito delio coz i wanted to hop into da forex van and wave to people en pretend i was sumone important too buh i coodnt find him en mai mom sed to eat so i had to go ;( i didn't even eat da flip food tho... i had a hot dog instead coz da smell of all dat food cookin made me feel reallie sick so i juss walked on over to the lonely hot dog guy. i felt bad fer him... onlee da non-flip ppolz wer goin der, so i thought i'd upp his asian pr en asked fer a hot dog. he made da ktechup on mai hot dog wid like two rows on each side of da hot dog and litto dots down it. keke soo purrty ;) anden wen i left he sed, "have a nice day, litto asian gal" keke wat a silly guy!

so after we ate mai ass got tired frum sittin so i tol mai mom to walk around wid meeh en she was like okay okay and we crossed da street to where most of da other vendor thingys wer. i bought a flip flag necklace and bandana. fock yah imma rock da bandana at fh camp en at every game... gotto show mai flip side yanno ;P anyways we went alll the way down to the end of the thing where there was a boardwalk type thing en we sat down der fer a while. we meanin: me, my mom, angela, derrick, tita bing, tita pauly, tita ami, tita nening, tito roy, tita detz, michelle, robert (tito roy's friend) en his girl. so finally wen we left da damn place i see mark, howie, wayne en gabe as mai mom was filling out some stupid thing to get a free t-shirt. gabe was like, "yah dus is somewhere" en i thought he meant dus was somewhere at home... so i'm like "ohh okay i gotto go" en i go back to mai mom en wen we head back guess who surprises da livin shit outta my tiny ass body? keke yerp yerp... dustin! i didnt get to chillz wid him fer long coz mai mom was like "letz go letz go" so yah we left da damn place en i was mad coz i wanted to chizzle wid mai papi ;(

after dat we go to fiesta grill en mai dad, tito roy, robert en his chick, en tita detz eat batchoy. my mom, tita nening en mai lolo go to diz eatery called maynila to hab halo-halo. kekeke so after der asses eat: me, angel en michelle go to white castle en proceed to michelle's apartment to eat.

since angel was der michelle invited her friend sydney over en wid sydney her bro angelo came. OMG angelo is sssoooooooo fockin cute!! kekeke he's the cutest 3 year old ever!! he talks like mai cousin mira, buh looks like mai cousin chris... (mira en chris bein mai two most favourite baby cousin) en kekeke yah, so at first he was shy buh den he was all sittin on my lap givin me cherry flavoured trident. keke he even drew me a picture! i'm def. puttin dat on mai wall!! kekeke... we took a picture together en yah, i better get a copy ;P

as of now, im dead tired en waitin fer mai papi to come back coz he juss signed off... prolly got kicked off kekeke buh yah... im soooo dead so imma juss leave mai blogger be fer da rest ubb da nite ;P

2002-06-29T20:55:00.000-04:00

:D i just checked mai v-mail from papi ::smiling uncontrollably::

hrrrmz... so wat i do today? i woke up at around 11 anden mai mom en dad en me went to cosco becoz i had an eye appointment. turns out i needed a litto stronger perscription from last time, buh woOt! new contacts for kar! ;P

tomorrow's da filipino parade in jc... betchu anything imma see all da ghetto flipz dat say all da time dey go to jc en chill. psshh watever ;P i'm going wid mai mom, dad, mai three aunts en mai litto cousin michelle. wer gonna meet up wid mai other aunt en mai uncle en mai other litto cousin angel sumwherez and mai sister might show her face buh i'm not too sure on dat wun, cheif. buh yah, i betta get sum white castle damnit!

soo yah, im so proud coz i made sumfin on mai new adobe photoshop... woOt woOt! keke i'll upload it sumwhere so you can see it laters.

2002-06-28T22:04:00.000-04:00

wow... i didn't go online at all until about an hour ago... amay-sing. ;P

todae i went to the doctor's anden afterwards dustin came over to chill... we had ice cream down the street anden went home watched tv, ate grilled cheez en cheez rice en salad, played wid yanni en... yah juss bummed around at mai house. wow, a whole week of chillen wid dus ;)

tomorrow i gotz an eye doctor's appointment at around 1? 1:30? iunno... anden more bummin' keke... yah... i wanna get mai eyebrows dun at the indian lady... i hope mai mom letz meeh ;x

2002-06-27T20:14:00.000-04:00

eeep!! it's my one-year anniversary!! 0:)

me and dustin had a great day: taking pictures, walking, taking a nice nap, playing in the rain, talking... just being together was so great ::smiling uncontrollably::

woOw itz raining pretty damn hard outside... thundering and everything. ubb course bein the loser i am, i went outside into the tent to get my book. i got drenched, buh hey... it was fun :)

i love you, dustin 0¦*

2002-06-26T15:58:00.000-04:00

it's thundering... and it's gettin cloudy. i think i'll go sit outside and read for a lil.

i love summer rain 0:)

2002-06-26T15:28:00.000-04:00

greg: i was joggin this morning, and i even jogged to baldwin bagles where she works, what a guy i am huh lol
me: yes wat a guy
greg: lol when i first read that i thought you said
greg: "yes your gay"

... keke talking to greg is always interesting ;P

2002-06-26T14:58:00.000-04:00

home again... i seriously cannot wait until i leave for fh camp and vacation. to be honest, i'm really thinking about long island for the week that dustin's away.

iunno... i just hate being home with nothing to do. ehh, maybe itz coz the next four days are busy: anniversary, bbq at dustin's, flip day parade in jc... this is the only day i'm sitting on my ass ;x

hit up mai voicemail: 1-877-510-8500 ext.198

::you have no new messages in your voice mailbox::

when's andrew coming back?? lol me and him seriously need to chill again ;P

2002-06-25T21:43:00.000-04:00

SHORTass piNAY x: kekeke she was cryin en im like milk!? u want milk!?
SHORTass piNAY x: buh nOoOo damn kid threw it on the floor
canann11: awwa lol i can picture kar bein a mommy awwwaa lol
canann11: sutbborn bebe lol
canann11: my sister wooda threw it at me! lol
SHORTass piNAY x: lol me?? a mom!? i'd prolly like throw my kid to dustin and be like... here it was ur sperm
canann11: hahahahaha
canann11: lmao
canann11: tru!!!

hahaha i love talking to can ;P

2002-06-25T21:19:00.000-04:00

tell me papi... wat does golf have to do with tennis? ;P

2002-06-25T21:06:00.000-04:00

ohh and yes, daddy totally beat 10.8!!

2002-06-25T21:00:00.000-04:00

stole this from cherise... enjoy ppolz!

1. Are you male or female?: "You can call me crazy, say im insecure.. but I dont wanna be, just another girl" - monica, just another girl

2. Describe yourself?: "Does it scare you that I can be something different than you?... Would it make you feel more comfortable if I wasn't?... Well you can't control me you can't take away from me who I am" - lifehouse, quasimodo

3. How do they feel about you?: "If I'm such a loser then why do you hang around me?... You're always trying to change me... You always say 'if only' ...If I keep listening to all the things you said... You're so miserable... You're so typical" - the moffatts, typical

4. How do you feel about yourself?: "Save me from myself... Cause I can't control myself... I've invaded my own mind... And there's things I cannot find... Where am I today?... I think I've gone away... But I really cannot say" - serial joe, save me

5. Describe your girlfriend/boyfriend?: "Ain't it like you to make me smile?... Pick me up when I'm feelin' down... When no one else comes around... Ain't it like you to make me smile" - b4-4, smile

7. Describe where you live?: "Maybe you could come to Dirty Jerz, New Jeru, witcha crew
You bring that ass, I'll bring the brew" -naughty by nature, holiday

8. Describe how you live?: "Don't wander through this glassy surface... Expecting to find more than me... 'Cause what am I without a purpose... But a lone mirage to see" - hanson, a song to sing

9. Describe how you love?: "I'm committed... So committed... I'm committed... I know what I know... I believe that it's true... The words are right there" - serial joe, committed

10. Share a few words of wisdom?: "take a look around tell me what you've found... life is a mystery and we're all just spellbound... and maybe were a tiny planet trapped in a big black hole... and maybe God's the only one that can free our soul" - the moffatts, ya ya

2002-06-25T18:20:00.000-04:00

wow i was actually working on something other than blogger today! woOt.

well... actually i was working on dustin's blogger trying to add music, buh that might take awhile... i figured i should work on my diary zine since ive been advertising since april and i havent sent out an issue yet ;x

dustin came over for about an hour... ROFHS ;xxx

soo yeah i guess i should go work on a layout for the zine... a simple of of course. i'll blog when i'm done i guess... laters ;P

2002-06-24T23:21:00.000-04:00

like i said... dustin came over... we went to blockbuster and shop-rite then to pathmark to buy steak with my uncle. wen we got back to my house we watched serendipity and ate ^_^ ... i'm sssooo full! anyways, now i'm off to bum around some more. i was looking at colleges, but yeah, i'm done with that now lol... laters ;*

2002-06-24T19:06:00.000-04:00

yay! dustin's coming over!

oh no my thong is showing! ::hikes up pants::

dustin, you're girlfriend's a dork ;P

2002-06-24T14:45:00.000-04:00

CaNaNn11: but then that ill b bad ,geez kar ur so bad lol

::sings:: bad to the bone buh buh buh buh baaaddd

hahaha i love you can! convos are always interesting with her.

2002-06-24T12:31:00.000-04:00

CaNaNn11: n thongs coz he always got sumthin of up his butt lol
yess... startin my day off right sharing some laughs with cannie ;)

so... my headache's gone... now i'm juss gonna look fer something to do, coz yerp... kar's getting bored again... big surprise, eh? anyways, i was thinking back to summer 2000 wen i seriously had nothing to do... and yeah, i spent my days listening to the moffatts ("i" is playing) and couting down the days till canada (39 days)... do i see a repeat coming??

yeah this pretty much sucks lol... all my friends are off on vacation... this would be the time where i would call lauren up and be like "hey you bored like me?" and she'd be like "definately" and then i'd be like "wanna come over and bullshit around?" and she'd be like "sure" and then we'd bullshit around lol... ::sigh:: i miss those days...

okay so i'm going to blockbuster in a bit... today's plan is: watch movies in the air conditioned room while everyone is suffering in the heat.

ohhman i need a life! ;P

2002-06-24T00:09:00.000-04:00

CanAnn109: geez rak lol

awwa i love my cannie :)

so wat to do... my mood is whatever ::points to imood:: i'm not cheery... that's definately not the case here ppolz... gaahhh... drama drama drama

damn people do create their own drama... geez...

i'm goin to bed... my head hurts like a bitch... someone kiss it... pweez? :\

2002-06-23T21:32:00.000-04:00

hrrmm... how nice:

Auto response from PaPi chiZzLe: yerp...watever

0:)

2002-06-23T21:20:00.000-04:00

gahh... i'm not even gonna stress it tonight... watever man...

2002-06-23T20:45:00.000-04:00

--[15 Years Ago, I ]--
1. was 2
2. lived in lake parsippany on warren dr.
3. was fukin' fat
4. was the youngest grandchild in the states
5. stayed home with my mom while my sister went to kindergarten at littleton

--[10 Years Ago, I]--
1. lived in lake parsippany on barrington rd.
2. wasn't the youngest grandchild (nikki was born)
3. was seven years old
4. went to school at eastlake
5. was bff with this girl named sarah trumbo

--[5 Years Ago, I]--
1. was 12
2. was obsessed with hanson
3. was best friends with sherlyne woOt!
4. went to school at CMS ::gags::
5. had grundy fer gym... awwa i miss him!

--[2 Years Ago, I]--
1. had to go to physical therapy
2. was a HUGE fan of the moffatts (en i still am a fan ;p)
3. went to canada for the second time durin the summer
4. went down the shore with timay, manang and ken
5. was boyfriendless ;P

--[1 Year Ago, I]--
1. ended soph year
2. went to myrtle beach for choir
3. went to sherlyne's cotillion practices every weekend towards the end of the year and the summer.. and i didn't mind at all because a certain somebody was there ;)
4. stressed over how i thought someone didnt like me, but then they were following me EVERYWHERE during each pratice
5. became dustin tabeta's girlfriend 0:)

--[Yesterday, I:]--
1. went to veronica's grad. party
2. chilled with dustin.. ROFHS ;x
3. went to foodtown with can... hahaha "i can shake it up some more if you want"
4. talked to dustin till about 1:30 a.m.
5. went to cannie's house learned how to salsa lol

--[Today, I]--
1. woke up at about 10:30
2. cleaned my room!! omg
3. watched: naranig mo ba ang l8test? on dvd
4. chilled with dustin coz he came over at like 4
5. ate too much food ;x

--[Tomorrow, I]--
1. will prolly wake up late
2. might get my eyebrows done and go to mcdonald's
3. will definately go online
4. will talk to dustin online or on the phone
5. will be bored sometime during the course of the day

2002-06-23T17:41:00.000-04:00

ahh so wat did kar do today? well, after i woke up and brushed mai teeth and all that i invaded mai sister's room to watch a filipino movie on the dvd player. while i was watching i get a call from dustin. last night he said that he'll call me in the afternoon or at night and go out the whole day, so i was pretty shocked and very happy that he called. we talked for a lil and then he went out. so, wen we got off the phone i decided to clean mai room and so i did... it only took me about 15-20 mins. since mai room is sOoO damn small. anyways after that, i finished the movie... verry good... go aga mulach! keke and go john prats! and yeah woOt! ;P

so it's afternoon and tita lara and tito cesar are here along with boardy... and i'm like damn i smell... thus, (haha you like that transition eh?) i took a shower changed and went on the computer. i wasnt even on for long, maybe 10 mins and the doorbell rings... and its... yerp you guessed it... dustin!! yayayayayayay!! sO yeah we chilled till 5:30 and now i'm here... maybe i'll take a survey to pass the time ;)

2002-06-22T23:41:00.000-04:00

now fer mai entry:

so dustin came and we ROFHS ... den it was off to veronica's graduation party. dustin went off and did karaoke and ishies and i talked to can while he was away. a lil while later me, can and dust played field hockey. man, can's pretty good for a first timer... PLAY FIELD HOCKEY CAN!!

okay, so after that me and dustin walked home... he left and i took a shower. i went back on the computer and can's like wanna come over? so i was like yeahh!! and yeah we had to go to foodtown... OMG cannie is nutz!! we were like flying across the asiles and there was this meat packer guy that was stalkin us... ewww so anyways after that we went to her house... ate pizza... i learned salsa dancing... OMG i cannot dance fer shizzle! den we talked fer a lil. i had to go home before 10, so at 9:30 or a lil past that i got dropped off and here i am... at the computer ;P

2002-06-22T23:13:00.000-04:00

woOt! i told you i'd come back with a survey... entry after this ;)

Name: karina
Nicknames: kar, baby, litto fuse
Age: seven`teen
Hair color: brown/blonde/black
Birthday: march twenty`seven
Eye Color: brown/gray
Siblings: one sister
Righty or lefty? righty
What's your sign? aries

On Friends...

Best Friend(s): papi, can, sheng en cat
Friend(s) you go to for advice? can mostly... we hab a 'connection'
Friend(s) you have the most fun with? papi >> always laughin, can >> foOdtown!!, kCS >> ass moments
Friend(s) your tell secrets to? my closest... which are aforementioned above

On Dating...

Long or short hair? short
Dark or blond hair? dark
Tall or short? no matter wat the guy's gonna be taller than meeh!
6 pack or muscular arms? errr? dun care
Mr. Sensitive or Mr. Funny? funny!
Good grrL or bad grrL? grrl? im not bi or gay...
Dark or light eyes? dark eyes
Hat or no hat? no hat... i like hair :)
Pierced or no? maybe the ear... juss one not two please...

Have you ever...

01. Fallen for your best friend? uhm... mo
02. Made out with JUST a friend? haha yeah... wen me and dust broke up and we were "just friends" ;P
03. Been rejected? hah! plenty of times
04. Been in love? yes, right now thankyouverymuch
05. Been in lust? derrt
06. Used someone? ehh... rebound :x
07. Been used? prolly
08. Cheated on someone? NO
09. Been cheated on? yess
10. Been kissed? yessum
11. Done something you regret? no.

Who was the last person...

12. You touched? candace... i high fived her lol
13. You talked to? dustin
14. You hugged? dustin before he left
15. You instant messaged? dustin
16. You kissed? papi... nummy ;)
17. You had sex with? derrt... i think you people are gettin the message bai now
18. You yelled at? uhhhh... my sister
19. You laughed with? candace... dancin' fun times fun times
20. You had a crush on? dustin... like last year
21. Who broke your heart? papi... but he fixed it :)

Do you...

22. Color your hair? pshhh yah
23. Have tattoos? nope
24. Piercings? yerp mai ears
25. Have a boyfriend/girlfriend/both? yeSsSs
26. Floss daily? no even though i should
27. Own a webcam? nO!! i want!!
28. Ever get off the damn computer? haha yeah after 17387198372037 hours of being on it
29. Sprechen sie deutsche? nope don't speak german
30. Habla espanol? hablo un poco pero no estoy estupendo cuando yo hablo ;P

Have you/do you/do you have...

40. Considered a life of crime? no
41. Considered being a hooker? fock no
42. Considered being a pimp? i pimp jeffy lol
43. Are you psycho? eh?
44. Split personalities? nope we don't have that
45. Schizophrenic? nope
46. Obsessive? yes.. over dustin! woOt!
47. Obsessive compulsive? haha yeah over the computer
48. Panic? yes
49. Anxiety? yes
50. Depressed? not all the time
51. Suicidal? nope!
52. Obsessed with hate? nope
53. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? uhhh no, you're startin to freak me out now
54. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? ewww no!
56. What would you be doing? ...
58. What are you listening to? "who do you love" by the moffatts is on repeat
59. Can you do anything freakish with your body? not that i know of
60. Chicken or fish? chicken... fish suks ;P
61. Do you have a favourite animal, no matter how lame it may be? monkeys! ;)

Curents...

Current Clothes: pink roots tank and gray cut off sweats
Current Mood: aloof ::points to imood::
Current Music: "who do you love" -mft
Current Taste: reese's puffs cereal :\
Current Hair: straight and curled in... no blowderyer woOt!
Current Annoyance: that i always have nothing to do!
Current Smell: papi's polo sport... i hab NO idea how it smells like dat over here
Current thing: blogger lol!
Current Desktop Picture: hayden christiansen
Current Favorite Group: moffatts and serial joe
Current Book: a walk to remember by nicholas sparks
Current DVD In Player: shrek was...
Current Refreshment: dr. pepper! ^_^
Current worry: wat to do to pass the time...?
Current Crush: no one... coz i LOVE dustin!
Current Favorite Celebrity: dustin tabeta...hes a filipino entertainer...and hes my boyfriend

FAVORITE...

Food: mc donald's fries
Drink: dr. pepper!
Color: pink and gray [never changes!]
Shoes: my old navt flip flops
Candy: rasinettes
Animal: monkey
TV Show: real world buh i watched american teen idol
Movie: a walk to remember
Dance: kar doesn't dance lol
Vegetable: lettuce... mmMmMmMm salad freak ;P
Fruit: peaches

2002-06-22T12:36:00.000-04:00

hrrrmz... i should be in bed watching cartoons and crap, but nOoOoOo... my mom had to wake me up to get my SAT scores... which by the way, were pretty bad :\

iunno... anyways, see my mood? i feel aloof. why? i have a headache and i feel a bit sleepy... maybe i should go lie down on the couch fer a while, eh?

oh and j if you're reading this, my pictures are at my picturetrail. dev told me to go to dotphoto, buh i'm juss too lazy... you know meeh keke ;) ... buh yah they're there so you can show them to angelo, too ohh and yeah... mail me yours and angelo's? ehhh you prolly won't see this so i'll juss email you guys later ;P

woOt okay... i'm out for now... maybe later i'll come back with a survey. oh and while i'm gone... visit cherise's site coz it kicks major boOtay ;P

2002-06-21T23:58:00.000-04:00

guez wat? i got bored... man, how many times have i blogged today?? hrrrmmzzz.... i wanna do a survey to take up some time and space... buh im talkin to dustin... and the convo juss got interesting.... ::devious smile::

2002-06-21T22:23:00.000-04:00

i added a gbook...
SIGN IT DAMNIT!!!

okey, hab a nice day! ^_^

2002-06-21T19:34:00.000-04:00

wow... pap smears are the worst. never ever ever ever get one if you're a chick.... you'll feel all violated. ::shivers::

so when we came back, me and dustin watched shrek and fell asleep on my sister's bed. i think i drooled on him... ohwellz... like he cares anyway... kekeke... something funny happened... it took forever for him to... kekekekekekkekekekekkeke... nahhh he'll kill me if i say ;x

so what am i up to? trying to stay awake and smelling the wonderful smells of meat on the bbq... i'm sOoOoOo eating later! buh yeah as for now... i'll continue on with my loverly convo wid mai papi :)

2002-06-21T12:20:00.000-04:00

gahhh dustin forgot my make up! :\

2002-06-21T12:16:00.000-04:00

ahh... i'm about to leave for my appointment in a half and hour... i'm so incredibly nervous it's not even funny... thank God dustin's coming with me... i don't know what i would do if he wasn't gonna come... eep!! pray for me ppolz... i really really could use it...

2002-06-21T01:10:00.000-04:00

wOw... late at night and i still have nothing to do... keke... i just finished making a blogger for my boyprend dustin. check it out!

hrrrmmzz... i shood be goin to bed soon... i do hab that appointment tomorrow at 1... ehhh a couple more hours won't hurt ;)

gahhh i had no idea all the nicknames had to be the same... grrruh now i have be creative and think summore...

2002-06-20T22:39:00.000-04:00

woOt!! finally done!! i know you all love my HTML skills... ::coughcoughlissaexplains.comcoughcough:: i'm so happy... man, you can tell i was hella bored today huh? xP

well, it's a new summer and i figured i should have a whole new blogger... yup... see that chick on your right? that's meeh.. karina. like it or not i'm prolly gonna write in here like crrrazzzy... so yeah, deal ;P

shout out to my papibear dustin!! go read his livejournal. he never writes in it and only takes the quizzes, buh he's a guy wat can you do?! ;)

2002-06-20T20:30:00.000-04:00

yay! gotz mai picture at the right... smile, kids :) now it's off to find my background picture...

2002-06-20T18:21:00.000-04:00

yay! everything i wanted colour wise is good... now juss fer da graphics... hrrrmzz

2002-06-20T16:57:00.000-04:00

just testing out my new blogger... how to get it the way i want it to look is so damn hard... :\